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aku dah kelam kabut .. padahal takdak angin takdak ribut .. kenape? ni sbb worley parson punye pasal la ni.. aku g apply keje situ pastu aku plak takdak xp.. cemane la nie nasib aku.. aku harap aku dapat impress derang dan amek aku bekerja walaupun utk sementara (contract basis).. tinggi menggunung harapan aku ni.. harapan aku utk keje kt tmpt besar. tp ape kan daya ilmu tak cukup. mcm mane aku nk handle pressure seblom interview pon nie.. aku pon tak pasti aku di short-listed tp aku dpt emel dari mamat bernardine anthony 3 hari lepas dan aku baru bace semlm. dah berkulat emel tu .. kang aku reply nie tah2 dia dah tanak layan aku dah.
sakit pale aku bile pk pasal nk belaja javascript la, ASP la, .net la , actionscript la .. design pon aku tak lepas. cemane la nasib aku nk keje nnt nie.. ade peluang lagi ke aku nk teruskan .. or should i pull myself out of art world.. i'm not creative to create creative things.. ah kenape la aku terase down ..

i wanna see the good side from this pressure later on.. good karma during worley interview maybe? hope so .. even tho i dun believe in karma, but i do believe in faith.. i'm a man of faith .. and fact .. for the fact is that i am not that worley want hahaahha ..

but why i do not put this thing like this .. just like the other interview i went through, at printpack in shah alam.. i still remember the word i said to that guy who interview me when he asked me why i want to join printing/dtp line while my design mostly down to website .. i did say ---- "JUST TRY MY LUCK, IF I DON'T HAVE ANY THERE'S NOTHING TO LOSE .... :D" and i smiled .. and this time i'm gonna fly through this like before.......

even i know job world is not a playground for kid like me .

by the way .. website aku dah on .. aku nk siapkan website utk tunjuk kat bernadine tu !!!

wish me luck!!!

communicate !!

ok every person is meant to be differ from the other [ye ye seme nyer berbeza sex/thought/looks or even environment that we're livin in] but yet we dont just live in our utophia alone and sober [even our dream have other ppl livin in it, isnit???]..and there's only a way to know each other which is communicate ..can you communicate this word can be define as gestures and verbals ..communicate means connect .. tapi mengonek adelah perkataan dan perbuatan yg tidak baik utk dilakukan atau diluahkan kepade seseorang ye.. ape yg aku cube katekan kat sini setelah malas berfikir dan menaip adelah ... kalo ade masalah bawak2 la berbincang .. noktah!

ops belom noktah lagi .. setelah beberape bulan aku taip pasal natang nie dan aku usha balik terase nk mengedit balik ape yg aku luah dan pikirkan mase awal² dlu.. tp aku tak tau mane poin yg harus datang dulu dan mende nie berkaitan.. so aku rase solution nyer aku akan membuat suatu cerita putar-alam yg aku sendiri rase aku sendiri pening nk paham

aku nk makan jap..

setelah mengambil mase dua hari aku 'makan' aku kembali nk menghabiskan ape yg aku start off .. sambil² denga lagu dari snow patrol - signal fire aku pon dah kacau jiwa menjadi jiwang walopon takdak awek ahaha ..

ok awal2 dlu aku pk .. kenape tuhan jd kan manusia ni berbeza2 , dua jantina lelaki-perempuan, lain bangsa, dilahirkan di lain2 tempat dan semestinya berlainan budaya dan tahap pemikiran dan terlalu banyak utk dipecahkan oleh aku dari segi fizikal dan mentaliti .. jawapannye dah ade dalam kepale kite masing2 kan .. utk kite memahami antara satu sama lain.. dan anugerah tuhan paling beharga dlm diri kita adelah akal utk menilai serta menafsir sesuatu ..

to go further, straight to the point bak kate omputih.. pasal berkasih sayang la .. kapel kate org mude2 .. gewe kate org kelate .. macam mane aku nk start point aku yg nie .. ok sape setuju dia kenal pasangan dia setelah setaun atau dua atau tiga atau lebih, secara fizikal dan mental? ehhe soklan tu ade org takleh jawab ade gak bole bagi percentage ataupon 100% konpiden kan.. ape2 pon jawapan korang .. try to get to know your partner as deep as you can la .. berbalik pade fizikal dan mental--- cemane nk huraikan kenal secara dua scope besar yg aku cuba kecikkan ni aku kene la kasi contoh kan :

fizikal - ape yg korang nampak?
mental - ape/mcmana partner korang berfikir?

fizikal - bentuk badan, gaye jalan, diet/pemakanan, eye contact, cara berpakaian, muzik yg didengar, dll
mental - how s/he make a decision, what's his/her dreams, how s/he thinks, what scares her/him

am i really clear bout this? naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh .. but still you can figure out for yourself la kan.. but here i'm not going to write bout how to read your partner like a book .. but i rather to tell bout small thing that some couple lack off -- to communicate .. maybe not a lot but i hope it will help us when small2 thing get in the way la .. aku pun bukan bagus sangat, pengalaman tu ade tp sikit je la .. ni pon cilok dari kawan2 je .. ape pon yg zahir adalah perlambangan hati, dgn kate lain luaran menggambarkan dalaman..

when you guys stuck into some problems.. maybe this method can be use .. if you or your partner are open, you can go for open conversation or talk or chat on phone; and if not .. why dont try to write a letter or email or sms ..

ah malas nk tulis dah .. last skali .. aku rase ape pon dalam dunia nie adalah bout give and take .. ko kasi aku rase, aku kasi ko rase laaaaaaa .. bukan kasi penumbuk, penampar atau penerajang ye abg2 kakak2 .. maki, kutuk atau ape bentuk yg bahasa yg kasar tidak digalakan jugerk .. good luck in creatin love story of your life !!

adiosssssssssss

MTV just a entertainment or a phenomena..?? ask .. ermm yourself ..

Sedang aku bosan² duk rajinkan diri dgn tolong si alip menyusun file² dalam hd pc dia nie.. terjumpa plak satu file word nie. So tanpa segan silu aku pon usha la ape mende.. igtkan asgt ke ape.. skali pasal MTV plak.. i took some time to read this while cleaning up the f**k*n dirty kitchen..

enjoy MTV boys and girls !!!

How many would believe the common television is a major building block of our present society? Yes, the very T.V. in your bedroom is one of the many influences that built and is building our society at this very moment. Through its' many commercials, sitcoms, movies and even MTV’s, they lay thick layers of influences on the average individual especially children. I am agreeing that MTVs are corrupting our children. Before I go further more let me explain what MTV is. MTV stand for Music Television that plays music video made by popular music artists. As we know children are like a white sheet, so they will key in every new thing for them and teenage like to explore any new things that they heard or see…that what we call a human nature. According to “Kids and Teens Show Who’s Boss in Purchasing Power” an article by Shari Sander in April 3,1995 issue of Discount Store News, “…72% of male and 75% of female (among teenagers in US) watch the cable music station weekly. MTV is also watches by teenagers in Europe, Asia and South America. Besides playing music video it advertise good that later became popular among adolescent who watch it. Most people, both teenagers and their parents think that MTV is just harmless entertainment, but I disagree with that idea. I believe that MTV is dangerous and must be treat with caution, or it will have a very bad effect on most of the million of young people who watch it world wide. We have to be careful with the MTV, they are corrupting our children. What I mean by “corrupt”? Crime and truancy are most suitable in this case. Mind abuse on sexuality, morality, religions and expansive fancy brand of cloth and shoes are the favorite recipe in this what we so call entertainment MTV.

Let the music sooth your soul. It is quite true in term of listening to songs that have a good lyrics and ethics. Now maybe that would be nicer than a cup of cappuccino after having a hard time at work or school. But now we are talking about “watching” not only listening but being entertain with video and audio (the most effective way to stick it in your head, if you heard something you will remember it and if you look at it you will memorize it) with less care on the lyric and concept of the MTV as long as it make profit to them. Just question yourselves, how much time do you spend your time in front of a television? Imagine how much of this vital poison has been spreading into your children’s minds. But what about a song with a good lyric, it will not do any harm to us is it? Not quite true, in MTV everything is not save starting from exploitation of a “Barbie” doll, “George of the jungle” and even to “Superman” nothing is being left out of this pathetic industry.

Example 1:

I'm a Barbie girl, in a Barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
You can brush my hair; undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

I'm a blond bimbo girl, in a fantasy world
Dress me up, make it tight, I'm your dolly
You're my doll, rock'n'roll, feel the glamour in pink,
kiss me here, touch me there, hanky panky...
You can touch; you can play, if you say: 'I'm always yours'

Dressing as a doll and singing this song. Will your children accept it in their mind? Undress everywhere, dress me up and make it tight, kiss me here touch me there. If using a real doll then it is alright but doing it yourself? Remember, children have a simple mind they accept thing with less thinking process like we do. How about “George in the jungle”? Also perform by the same group of a singer. They dress up as Tarzan and Jane, this kind of Disney theme always draw out attention from children don’t they? The problem is the outfit or costume mainly exposure more than it suppose to cover and that is not good!

Next example:

They call me Superman,
Leap tall hoes in a single bound,
I'm single now,
Got no ring on this finger now,
I'll never let another chick bring me down,
In a relationship, save it b***h babysit you make me sick,
Superman aint savin s**t girl you can jump on shady's d**k

Straight from the hip, cut to the chase,
I'll tell a m*****f*****g slut to her face,
Play no games, say no names, ever since I broke up with what's her face,
I'm a different man, kiss my a**, kiss my lips, b***h why ask
Kiss my d**k, hit my cash, i'd rather have you whip my a**

Don't put out i'll put you out,
Won't get out i'll push you out,
Puss blew out, copin s**t,

Wouldn't p*ss on fire to put you out,
Am I too nice buy you ice,
B***h if you died, wouldn't buy you life,
What you tryin to be, my new wife

This is the lyric from a famous rap artist. A song title “Superman” with a MTV that is totally out of specification to being watch by your children. There is a part where the rapper lying on the floor with countless sexy women licking each other surrounding him. Now that is different from what your children imagine of a “Superman” a farm boy with supernatural power?

Let’s talk about morality, does it make your children better by talking bad language not only with their friends but also to their parent. That is what will happen because children easily pickup words or phrase from the MTV and use it throughout their daily life. Of course we do not want that to happen. What goes on air and display on the TV screen? For your information there are many artists that cursed even their own parent, siblings, friends and others.

Example:

Keep kicking *ss in the morning, and taking names in the evening
Leaving with the taste of sour with viniger in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now, I betcha prolly sick of me now
Ain't you mama, I'm make you look so ridiculous now
I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant make you cry
But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet
One More Time
I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant make you cry
But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet
Ha!
I got some skeletons in my closet
And I don’t know if no one knows it
So before they throw me inside my coffin and close it
I'm expose it, I'll take you back to '73
Before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD
I was a baby maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must've had his panties up in a bunch
'Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't, on second thought I just fucking wished he would die

My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't
'Til I grew up, now I blew up it makes you sick to your stomach, doesn't it
Wasn't it the reason you made a CD for me, ma
So you could try to justify the way you treated me, ma
But guess what, your getting older now and it's cold when your lonely
And Nathan's growing up so quick he's gonna know that your phoney
And Hailie's getting so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll never see her, she wont even be at your funeral
See what hurts me the most, is you wont admit you was wrong
B***h, do your song, keep telling yourself that you was a mum
But how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get
You selfish b***h, I hope you f*****g burn in hell for this s**t!

Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me
Well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be

The MTV of this song picture the singer digging up a grave on a rainy night and start to curse on his mother.

The black metal once was a serious case among student and teenage in our country Malaysia. Realize it or not, the main influence come from the music and the text book of it is the MTV. Marilyn Manson, hardcore metal such as Cradle of Faith and a lot more to mention are the idol for these “unlucky” teenage or children. Even because of this, some of our student already have tattoo on their bodies as a mark or even trend from what they have been watching trough the MTV. This kind of MTV brings out the gothic mood and sometimes we find out it is very disturbing. Sad but true, every singer have the right to express their feeling and thoughts. Who can do something about it?

Trendy and stylish. Who decide that? Now day’s children mostly teenagers would like to be up to date. How to be up to date? How to get a fashion? How about using the MTV and follow the way your idol singer dress up? I am not saying that it is wrong to do that. The thing is what kind of fashion do you follow? How about your budget? They would do anything to look like their artist even if they not have the money to buy the shoes the dress the necklace evens the hair style! Some of them are lucky and come from a wealthy family, how about the others? Saving their pocket money, not eat during recess and even borrowing money from their friends. Everything have the bad side of them, if u have a lot of money still u will be wasting money by buying stuff that you does not actually needed and there are many other thing to spend the money on maybe on your studies or save it in the bank for future and emergency use. Gastric is a common thing to people that does not take their meal on time and how much will the children’s bodies can stand. The trendier you want to be the more money you have to pay for it and that’s where the extra pocket money goes to. When they borrow money from other people to buy things that they desire, they can get the item easily in a short time. This will make them addicted and lost control of their financial. They will end up with people bugging you all around asking you to pay back their money. All of these will make your children to grow up to be an unhealthy person.

I think it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out MTVs peddle this message to the masses. MTVs have been dishing it out to kids for more than a generation. Don't mad with your child if they did not turn into a good citizen and don't blame musicians because they have a right to say and show whatever they want in their music, no matter how offending it might be to some people. It is all in your hand how you want to raise your child. I think if they cannot make a right decision we must choose it for them or give guidance and good example. To prevent this poison from spread and spoil our kids parent should talk to their teenage kids about the evil of pop culture and it main source MTVs. Good communication between child and parent will help a lot to solve this problem. Both kid and parent must take action or MTVs will ruin the future of this nation and many other part of the world.

Like a Star .. by Corinne Bailey Rae

Just like a star across my sky,
just like an angel off the page,
you have appeared to my life,
feel like I'll never be the same,
just like a song in my heart,
just like oil on my hands,
Honor to love you

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
with anyone but you,
we do it all the time,
blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
you make me feel I'm alive,
when everything else is au fait,
without a doubt you're on my side,
heaven has been away too long,
can't find the words to write this song of your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
with anyone but you,
we do it all the time,
blowing out my mind,

Now i have come to understand,
the way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
from tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
now I understand,
Yeah-yeah

Oooh......Ooohhhh..

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
with anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
for anyone but you
we do it all the time,
blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
just like an angel off the page,
you have appeared to my life,
feel like I'll never be the same,
just like a song in my heart,
just like oil on my hands.

... what a wonderful song ~~~~